I've Been Waiting for You

by Nhojj

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Emotional Risk of “I've Been Waiting for You”
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Hauntingly beautiful... darkly magical... emotionally overwhelming... and... this CD is not for everyone! If you don't like emotional dark spaces... This CD may not be for you. A circle of beauty and sadness... a gift of 15 exquisite black roses. But if you can't recall love stopping your heart... this CD may not be for you. These songs live deep below the surface like our moods. It's my submission... crying is cathartic.

“I've Been Waiting for You” is my first escape into writing and creating music. The very beginning... I wrote it to make sense of the world inside. It is like a personal diary. My thoughts and feelings and confusions, all laid bare. I always feel naked listening to it. But submerging into these ethereal harmonies and melodies released me. Art and music have a way of transmuting pain into beauty.

This project took over 2 years to complete – I kept fine-tuning it, bringing more feeling and emotion to the surface... making the music not so raw and unpolished. The focus was on my falsetto voice and how it can release pain imprisoned deep inside. I worked alone – many times late into night, recording the songs I wanted to hear. Quiet soaring music, yanking my heart strings, and bending the bars limiting my reality. It is a crime to the soul - to hide, especially from yourself.

Now we easily remember our first times... our first kiss... our first love... it usually is never perfect, sometimes a little scary, and yes even painful. But it affects us in a deeply profound way, because it opens the door to a whole new world of experience and surprise that we didn't know existed. So we cherish it for as long as we can.

And so I cherish you... because you are here celebrating this experience of my first CD... the first music I composed and recorded. Thank you for sharing these moments with me... even if this CD is not be for you. But if this CD is for you, I hope my music opens the door to a whole new world of experience and surprise.
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credits

released 01 December 2001
All Songs written, arranged & produced by Nhojj
Additional production by Adlai & Sam Archer
Mixed by Nhojj
Mastered by Discmakers
Photography Jerry James & Nhojj

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Track Name: Intro
I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you
I've been up and down
I've been all around
I yearn the warmth of your sound

I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you
Melody passes through me
And I am born again
Track Name: Faithful
You told me you're broken
Told me you’re through
So much has happened don't know what to do
You've cried your last cry said your good-byes
Don't need him around just pulls you down
Have to put it all behind you leave if love's not true
He's not the one for you
He lies cheats never loves you
Shows you no respect always leaves you sitting here
Crying in a wreck

But I will be faithful

Can you find it in your heart to make a brand new start
Know that I'm here for you know that I care
Look into my eyes
What do you see
What do you feel
Do you feel how I am aching sitting here watching you cry
Can you see my heart breaking hearing you say you want to die
Can you feel the pain consuming me hearing you still love him
Can you know the anguish of my soul
Knowing that I could never say

That I will be faithful

I wish you could hear me… I'm saying I love you
I wish you could feel… I'm holding you tight
You're forever in my heart… I could never hurt you
I wish you could believe

That I will be faithful.
Track Name: Another Day
I see you standing there
Brown as Earth
Light is drawn to u
And I… I am drawn to sound
The sound of bare feet against cool wooden floors
The sound of your voice against my earlobes

What dominates your dreams?
What controls desire?
What ignites the fire?
What takes you higher?
What brings ecstasy to your fantasy.
Intensity to your sensuality.
What combines urgency, necessity, and exhibits complexity in my humanity.

Is it song?
Is it poem?
Is it candle light, the feeling of being light
Skin pressed tight, soft nibble, gentle bite
Bodies that fight and unite.

But u pass right by
A rose, a scent, a sigh
Mother Earth breathes,
Adjective and superlative cease to be definitive
Too sweet for words, too sweet to express
Too deep to formulate, too raw to communicate
Feelings and emotions suffocate, as I stare intently
Gaze directly in hateful anonymity at the brilliance
That is vanishing before my eyes

Step by step. Emptiness consumes.
Longing reverberates thru the hollow of me.
I am as I was b4.
Track Name: Sorry
I found a place a time
Space filled with love divine
My sign a soul defined by solace no denying
Heaven surrounded me I loved the harmony
But you felt agony you needed to be free
Cause then it came it came the day
The day the day my life faded away
You said you said your heart your heart had strayed
I searched for a grave in which my body could decay
And waited for the day

But now devotions new
Your heart broken in 2
By the charms between his arms
The kisses of his lips
You've come to say hello
And maybe touch the flesh below
You need to hear your song take you home where you belong
But even though I've tried a million times
To keep the dark past out of my mind
I never ever find the strength to bind
Anger and despair that lay deep inside
So I must ask you to leave

I've been through too much.
Track Name: Interlude - Wade
Ahhh
Track Name: Wade in the Water
Every step along your way
Will lead your closer to me
And every sound my mouth creates
Will lure you closer to me

Chorus
Wade in the water
It's really not deep
Gaze out on the ocean if only for a peak
And when you get to that side
Where you feel you have to hide
Think of cool waters- the way you made me smile
Think of soft winds- the way you felt inside

In the dark where I wait for the dawn
I will say your cognomen
And when you do perceive
I'll be hear calming your fears

Wade in the water.
Track Name: Me & U
There you are... loving
There you are... trusting
I do believe in this love we share
I have no fear now that you are here
In my life

Here I am... near you
I only live... for you
And baby I want this way I feel to never end
You're my friend until the end
End of time

So here we are... together
I am yours... forever
And up until now I never knew what love could do
It brought me you

So here we are... caring sharing loving
And until now I never knew what love could do
Me & U
We'll make it through anything.
Track Name: don't b afraid
Love Joy Pain Suffering, after the rain, don't b afraid to love again
Track Name: Come Back
I wonder
Are u asleep tonight
Asleep while the moon gives light
And my heart don't feel so right
You're not by my side
I thought of you
As the sun went away
And I can't wait 'til my night will turn again to day
I need you in my life

All the fights we had
Don't seem to be so big right now
And all the pain we shared
Is nothing like the pain I bear
So close your eyes and may you have sweet dreams
And if there's time please think of me
I'll be waiting here
'Til the morning comes

Now I know I've done you wrong
I never should have left your side
But sometimes as we look away the treasure in our palms slips away
So now as I say goodnight
On my knees in this candlelight
I'm begging you

Please come back to me.
Track Name: The Sad Song
Tear filled brown eyes
A look to memorize
Dark full lips
The ones you never kissed
A feeling deep inside
As dark as suicide
You run your fingers through my hair
And then you disappear-Oh

Your things' still in my drawer
Your pictures line the corridor
I wish I could have known
Tonight I'd be alone
You put your hands around my heart
And then you pull apart
Blood is everywhere
But you don't even care-Oh.
Track Name: Interlude - We Need
We need more love
Track Name: More Love
Have you ever paused to look into her eyes
Have you taken the time to find out why she cries
Would you stay for a while, while he tried to remove his disguise
And showed you the fear that he found buried deep inside

Everyone out there yes they too deserve respect
It's not just ones with whom you can connect
Sometimes what appears to be different in truth is the same
Truth and love together should be the aim

Cause there's pain and the air
And sweet smiles hide deep despair
And you could dry a tear if you cared

More love- we need more love.
Track Name: Interlude - Waiting
I've been waiting for you
Track Name: Waiting for You
My soul has been longing
For some belonging
Searching never found
Ever spinning round
My heart has been waiting
Anticipating
Joy truly ever flowing
Peace beyond my knowing

I’ve been waiting for you
Been up been down been all around
I yearn the warmth of your sound
I’ve been waiting for you
I hoped and prayed then cried for days
But now you’re here in me

Motion always comes to rest
Flying birds soon come to nest
Immersed in beauty void of sight
Midnight sun illuminate my night
It’s quiet here inside me
Harmony reigns over me
I come to rest within myself
Here I do belong

I’ve been waiting for you
I rest in peace my agony released
I’m sleeping in your arms
I’ve been waiting for you
Melody passes through me and I’m born again

Now I don’t care what you think about me
I only know there’s peace within my soul
Now you may choose whatever Thing that pleases you
But it won’t take my love.
Track Name: The Lullaby
Hush little one
Don't let the insanity
Disquiet you
Let it go
You have tormented self
For far too long

Why do you agonize
And crucify yourself
Transcend this dormancy
Search for tranquility

Sleep little one.